But I can't keep a secret.
[deep breath] Okay here goes..
I'm pregnant.Uh huh... that's right.. I'm
pregnant.
I'm not meant to tell until we're past the first trimester, but it's hard to keep a secret.
We've been to our first appointment with the obstetrician. He's a lovely man.. easy-going and rather relaxed about the whole thing. I suppose he's probably seen more women and babies than I have balls of yarn so it's all old hat to him.
It's all very exciting for us, being the first pregnancy and all. The doctor managed to find the heartbeat, and we heard it. It's so amazing to hear a heartbeat coming from my belly and knowing it's not my own. Well, he said that the risk of miscarriage is significantly lower once the heartbeat can be heard so I guess that's why I thoguht it may be appropriate to share the news now.
So now perhaps you can understand why the loss of knitting mojo is so frustrating. I feel like I should be nesting now and knitting up little outfits for the bubba-to-be and it is just NOT happening! I am glad this baby will be born in summer and won't need winter warmers till it's about 5 or 6 months old. I can try to focus on socks and mittens.
This whole being pregnant thing is taking its toll on me. Poor Chris has had to deal with a tired grumpy wife for most of our marriage (and it's only been two months!). Thank God he's patient. He's learnt to stop suggesting that I go "relax and knit".. I can't! The texture of yarn makes me nauseous. How ridiculous is that?! I am a knitting mama.. I want to knit!
So far I have managed, on my good days, to make a few squares for a baby blanket and also a pair of
"better than booties" baby socks. That's all I have to show for the last few weeks. Hmm.. not very good, is it?
I must confess to having had mixed feelings about this pregnancy. Don't get me wrong. I want it, and I love it to bits already. But, how can one be so hungry and so nauseous ALL the time? How can I lose my waist so rapidly when I am not eating that much? How can parts of me hurt so much? (Those of you who have been pregnant will know which bits I am referring to..) And most of all, how can I be so tired ALL the @#$%^&* time?!
Ok, I'm done whining.. I think.
Oh wait, I'm not done. I had a decent morning today and I thought I'd try knitting. Right.. why not? So I whip out some needles and a beautiful fluffy white angora that I had gotten in a swap. I thoguht I'd make some baby hats - for myself and a couple of colleagues who are also expecting babies.
I cast on about 5 stitches, and it broke.. Hmm.. Let's try again..
I cast on another 50 or so stitches, and it broke again..
Hmm what is going on here?
So I strated re-winding it to see how many breaks there are. After winding a few metres I had another break and I found what looked like a dead bug. I looked deeper in the ball and tehre was another. Eeeeuw!
Right.. my decent morning went rapidly downhill from there.
I've thrown out the other few balls of angora that I got from the same swap. I can't even remember who I had swapped with to get this yarn. Oh well. I am sure she was none the wiser too. If I recall correctly she had warned me that there were a few breaks at the top of the ball, and I had dthoguht that the yarn was just too tightly wound or something. Well, now I know. What a waste. There were a few balls of white and a couple of pink. Would have made such cute and soft hats.
No more knitting for me today. Just thinking about it makes me itch. Eeeuw!
